HOW DOES COVID MAKE ME FEEL?
I’m not really an introvert, but I have a lot of anxiety and depression, so quarantining has been a mix of emotions. I’m sure most of these emotions apply to most people, but I’m the one writing this, so ya know.
Not gonna lie… I feel peaceful because I get to stay home and do nothing, which is fantastic for someone with depression. Just getting up and out the door can feel like a major task. But during COVID, I wake up, and I’m free! I can stay home and not shower. I can order pizza at 10 am. I can let my eyebrows go feral. And they have.
I can also feel like shit since I’m not exercising because I can only feel motivated with someone instructing me. Yes, I know about online classes, but why would I do that when I can order pizza and watch TV?
Sheltering at home has been a great place to hide. In a sick way, it’s comforting. Everyone has to do it. We are all in the same boat. At least in LA. Everyone is anxious and depressed, so I feel like welcome to my world.
How people feel now is how I feel most of the time. But during this, I have felt normal because everyone else is where I usually am. Does that make sense?
But don’t cry for me. By staying home, I’m saving lives! I get to avoid people! I am living the anxiety dream! Avoid avoid avoid!
Every few days, my anxiety goes nuts because I realize this lockdown will end. WTF am I going to do after this? Will I ever work again? Then I get depressed and want to sleep all day. The feelings go on and on and up and down.
Most of the time, I feel numb. The days can feel typical emotionally because I run on anxiety and depression. That is my engine. SO if you’re struggling, here are things I do to put a pep in my step. Just kidding. I have no pep.
Here’s what I’m currently doing to fight off depression and anxiety. You’ll notice it’s nothing groundbreaking, but sharing is caring and I care about people!
FEEL THE FEELS
1) I remind myself that it’s okay to feel angry, sad, helpless, and unmotivated. I mean, it’s a damn global pandemmy, and you’ve never been through this before. Don’t beat yourself up.
ATTITUDE OF GRATITUDE
2) I remind myself that no matter how bad I have it, or how frustrated I am, other people have it much worse. Oh man, the homeless people in LA. Just driving by a homeless encampment is jarring and makes you immediately grateful. So many people are struggling way worse than myself.
BOOKS TO ESCAPE
3) Reading a book. I’m a nonfiction gal. I just ordered my friends Arden Myrin’s new book, Little Miss Little Miss Compton- A Memoir. Arden is a hilarious comedian and actress and she has quite a story, so I’m excited!
MUSIC TAKE ME AWAY
4) Listening to music! I’ve been listening to lots of music but really loving Fiona Apple’s new album Fetch The Boltcutters. It’s really different from her other albums and it’s very creative.
MOVE THE BOOTY
5) My favorite is going outside, with a mask on, for a walk. I’ve gotten some good walks in. Since the hiking trails have opened up in LA I’ve done some hiking, but social distance can be an issue because apparently people don’t know how to measure six feet. But Headphones + Pandora = Escape.
What are you doing to stay sane? Are your feelings all over the place? Share below!